Am I A Racist? Confronting Our Blind Spots with Melvin Bray

Melvin Bray, author of the book, Better: Waking Up to Who We Could Be, is a gifted storyteller and writer whose approach to telling better stories about ourselves is especially pivotal in this election season. As we struggle with the issues of racism that have dogged the presidential campaigns, his insights are especially important for Christians. Melvin does not flinch from his message that too often the ways in which we have interpreted and handed down our faith stories have been instrumental in perpetuating racism in our nation and in our churches. Grounding his message is his belief that “better” is possible. Melvin speaks directly to Christians when he says, “The problem isn’t our stories, but rather the way we tell them.”

Conversation Notes

To provide more context for the conversation, Melvin recommends these resources to add context to the conversation: 13th, by Ava DuVernayAmerica Divided (a documentary series), Underground (Episode 1); White Rage by Carol Anderson.

Show Notes

The problems that we face today are problems that people who have been in traditionally power over positions, aren’t going to be able to solve. They are not problems that white males, white people, males, upper class folk, extremely educated folk, are going to be able to lead us out of. Melvin’s goal is to be in support of women, particularly women of color and queer folk, who are in the best position and experience to lead us beyond the problems we face now around sexism, heterosexism, racism, etc.

Part 1: Recognizing Racism

The definition of racism needs to be rooted in the field of critical race theory. A working definition of racism is that racism is a system of laws, practices, economic structures, religious structures, it’s a system that privileges white people and unprivileges people of color.

Systemic Racism analogy: What part of a lawnmower cuts that grass? You might say the blade. But the blade by itself doesn’t do anything. It just sits on the grass. It’s not the motor. A motor, even if it has gas and has started, will just sit there. Even the whole lawnmower, humming, isn’t going to cut grass without someone pushing it. It requires some agency. The way the pieces of racism work together

If you are a part of the system, and you participate in the privileging of yourself, or the unprivileging of others, whether intentionally or unintentionally, then that makes you a part of the system.

Racism is not about how you feel about a person. When people say this is a racist system that is predicated on white supremacy, and supported by structures like white objectivity, then they are not saying that you feel a certain way toward black people and that’s your problem. It’s not about that. It’s about being involved in a process that is meant to privilege you in certain ways while it unprivileges other people in other ways. How you feel about it doesn’t effect that system. What affects the system is how you choose to be in relationship to it. This is where we get into questions about dismantling racism. Dismantling “whiteness.”

The designation of the term “white” historically exists to privilege a particular group of people. It’s to say, “you are not them” and therefore certain things belong to you. When we talk about dismantling whiteness, we mean there are some things that you are going to have to give up in order to be a part of what is becoming. There’s a choice to put oneself within a system that privileges some and unprivileges others. This is also the reason that people of color can still participate in white supremacy. They can choose to hold up particular notions about who we should be in the world versus choosing a healthier way of being in the world that isn’t antagonistic or hostile toward others.

We can point to a time in history before people called themselves “white.” People started used the term “white.” In the United States, there was a time when those in power feared that poor white people would unite with black people against them. So they got poor white people to think, “Well, at least I’m not black or Native American.” Laws and social practices were constructed to create a white structure against people of color.

Part 2: Racism and the Election of Donald Trump

Racism is showing up in the way the DNC and RNC electoral campaigns run themselves. For example, this should be a run away election for Hillary Clinton because she’s running against someone who is so far beyond the pale that he shouldn’t even be a viable consideration. So, Democrats make fun of Republicans for bigotry, and that bigotry has reality, so why is it so close?

First, these folk aren’t dumb. They appeal to some real or perceived needs that are expressed by particular people. But those needs to represent all the people. Here’s the problem: You go to a place like Georgia. Whether Georgia is a blue state or red state is determined by between 150,000-200,000 votes. All the DNC has to do is register 200,000 people. If they register people of color, 90% of them are going to vote Democrat. Texas is a red state by about 900,000 votes. There are 3 million eligible Latino voters who have not been registered. Why isn’t the DNC encouraging these people to register?

There are two reasons. Either the white vote is being privileged as the only important votes, or people are running from the inevitable shifts in power when you add more people to the system. White men consultants who advise to either go door to door or do political campaign ads make money 15% on those ad buys.

If the same amount were spent on grass roots efforts, you’d get more voters who are people of color, but the predominantly white people in power wouldn’t get paid the same way. That’s racism.

If the DNC seeks to register people of color, there’s a fear that they may not always vote for the DNC, or the people of color might start making more demands. As much as Hillary Clinton is the only viable option, but Hillary Clinton would rather risk losing than say, “Hey I’m going to bring these new people in and then I’m going to convince people to get excited to vote for me by giving them the things that matter to them.” The economic plan put forth by BY 100 is an economic plan that would benefit people of color and help correct some wrongs that have been done. Campaign Zero is a plan for how to remedy problems around state sanctioned murder of people of color by police. Clinton hasn’t said she would support any of these measures. She hasn’t said, “Let me look at this Black Lives Matter platform and see what parts we can incorporate. She has offered nothing to say, “Get excited about me.” That’s part of the racism because the assumption is that you might as well vote for us because we’re better than the other guy.

If you are in a position of power, there’s very little motivation to let it go. If you grow up in a male dominated world, you find yourself, as a male, resisting any change. Even if we say that women are a part of the structure, they find themselves having to answer to men for choices they make. We need to interrogate power. You can’t have a conversation about dismantling racism without changing the way power is leveraged and who gets to leverage it. If we had that going on in the election season now, one thing we’d change is the terms we use to talk about things. What lets me know that racism is alive is language constructs. Like “Make America Great Again.” Any person of color is going to look at that and say, “So, when was America great? Tell me what time we want to go back to, because more than likely, my story was on the losing end of that greatness.”

But the other side isn’t much better. They say, “Better together.” It sounds good. But when it was framed at the DNC, there was this ahistorical framing that was aggravating for anyone of a person of color who knows anything about history. The DNC said that we’ve always been a nation that believed we are better together. But when was that? Trillions of dollars of wealth were created on the back of black slaves.

Both sides need to use language that speaks to the truth about who we are, what we need to do to work on, and who we want to be.

Part 3: Telling a Better Story: Birth of a Nation

How do we impact the Narrative that keep perpetuating Bad stories we tell about ourselves, that are either incomplete or outright lies?

Birth of a Nation tells the story of Nat Turner, who led the most successful slave revolt in the country, but even it was stopped. Turner is portrayed in the movie as surviving in a system of brutal slavery with internal compromises.

Nat Turner is one of Melvin’s heroes. As a high school teacher, Melvin always had Nat Turner’s picture in his room as someone who has motivated him. Turner’s rebellion is usually discredited with language around it being an act of violence. That language calls what he did into questions. That language starts at second lane. As if violence started with Nat Turner. The violent brutalization started long before Nat Turner. Nat Turner said we cannot continue to be brutalized, to be subject to violence, and hold on to our fragile humanity that these people are constantly trying to take from us. It was explicitly called “chattel slavery.” It was a way to tell black slaves that they were not human, they were chattel. Nat Turner said no more of this. “I will not accept this pillaging of my body or my mind or my faith or my future. I’m going to bring this to an end on the terms already set by the oppressors.”

Melvin calls into question the philosophical binary between violence and nonviolence. Even if we call what Turner did “violence” it was an act of necessary preservation of life, not an act of selfish taking of life, which changes the terms of violence.

We hear the same language of violence and nonviolence in the modern protests movements. People in power insist that protests stay nonviolent. It’s another example of hypocrisy coming from the mouths of those in power – our violence is okay and yours is not.

Supremacist logic says that whatever white people choose to do is justifiable, not necessarily justified. It says certain people belong on top and others do not. If someone on top does something questionable, you can debate whether it was justifiable. But there is no debate with someone on the bottom. It could be racial or gender or many other forms of supremacy. The notion is that the only appropriate response to those acts of violence is to allow them to continue until those who are perpetrating them choose out of the goodness of their heart, the conviction of the Holy Spirit, the acknowledgment of wrong doing and a conversion to the right out of nowhere to stop.

The point is not that one form of violence is right and another is wrong. It’s that the argument about violence is beside the point as a moral barometer of what is actually wrong. Dehumanization is the issue. Debating violence is a way to self-justify and give yourself the illusion that you are talking about violence when you are actually avoiding talking about the real violence that’s taking place.

Better: Reimagining Biblical Stories

In Better: Waking Up to Who We Could Be, Melvin looks at the Bible with an angle that rescues them from a supremacist interpretation. Better asks “What if the world, with all of its racism, sexism, heterosexism, ecological disregard, tribalism, what if the world is exactly the world we storied into existence with our hostile telling of our faith stories?”

We take stories that are about virtues of love, joy, peace, long suffering, gentleness meekness, courage, justice, and beauty, and we turn them into stories that glorify our own illegitimate grabs at power. If we have storied ourselves into this way of being into the world, then we can story our way out of it. We can go back to those virtues and make sure that in our telling of the story we are reflecting those virtues. Some of our stories are cautionary tales of what happens when we don’t live by those virtues.

Melvin Bray (, @themelvinbray) is an Emmy® award-winning storyteller, writer, educator and social entrepreneur who resides with his wife, three kids and two dogs in the Westview neighborhood of southwest Atlanta, GA.  He is an active participant in multiple vanguard networks working to cultivate more sustainable approaches to a life of faith, including Faith Forward, Auburn Seminary’s “MountainTop,” CommonUnity, and the Table to Action Project Atlanta. He is co-editor of Faith Forward, Vol 1 and Vol 2 (Copper House, 2013, 2015), which explore the growth edges of children’s and youth ministry, and coordinating author of The Stories in which We Find Ourselves, reimaginings of the biblical narrative that put the goal of beloved community front-and-center.  Melvin works to help communities of goodwill find better stories and scripts–better ways of thinking and doing–that move them toward beloved community ( His new book, Better: Waking Up To Who We Could Be, is now available.